ICE 

chronicles of housing benefit.

 

 

 on sexual role play 

from Intro to 'In the hands of a living God' by Marion Milner 

 

love

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=06B_1t6-WKM

not lonely 

 

 

 

xmas was 2017 or 18

 

https://youtu.be/Z_xsgfOWpY4

paris commune at 150, notes from symposium

 was listening to https://www.nts.live/shows/keel-her/episodes/keel-her-2nd-november-2021

really good. 

Notes from The Royal Foundation of St Katherine - an extraordinary urban oasis

02/11/2021

 political aesthetics

Presentist thinking - troubled

People felt disenfranchised. The commune was a moment where people tried to take governance into their own hands. 

The commune was a moment where people tried to take governance into their own hands. 

Democratic language comes from analysis. 

Fiat - scrupulous and perpetual analysis. 

1870- class, mark tralgate?

Identifying with the royal family (WC people in Paris at that time. Working class people identifying with the oppressor. Reagan democrats)

Get in touch with Isabel Armstrong..

“Curse of constitutional melancholia”

Thomson ‘B.V’ - city of dreadful night

‘A being to whom the material realm as been restricted, intolerable’

Labour - connected with the sadness of melancholia. The ‘melancholy angel’ Ruskin and modern painters. 

“A studious neutrality” from the editors of the National Reformer, (writing at the time of the commune) whereas the poets were more passionate, and emotional. 

The defeat, the desperate fight. Against the internalised misogynist horror (my ego)

Having one, cultivating via an imaginary. And a fight for utopia, a boring fight?

A linguistic counter-culture - Deaf poetics…

Brecht and communard aesthetics - Scott McKracken. Literary responses to defeat. 

“Defeat makes u a better dialectical historian” 

(Mom in exile from her own life story)

Documents of defeat? Scatter, dispersal, archives of fragments - being aware of shape of what is there. 

• Svenborg “fragmentary, broken, reports”

(My proximity to the working class) toilet. shit. These are not the enemy. Even though, even though

“I’m having a hard time, I’m preparing my next mistake.”- something Brecht?

Anecdote as an accepted form, reinserts history into the narrative.

Anecdotes as disruptive.

Guilt and shame - Scott McKraken - anecdote to illustrate a point.

A life left incomplete comes close to being overcome by despair.

• 1933/1937 pre/post exile. defeat.

(( bulldoze )) don’t, just be quiet, calm, careful.

A wager with the future.

Is this a party?

A recognisably communard aesthetic.

Fragileliterary forms. Preserving a trace of hope.

Clare Pettit (KCL) - hope, fulfilled for a little. Idyllic in arts + literature vs utopia.

Idyll is an edgeless zone, transformative, collapsing binaries.

Gustave Courbet - does these with his fruit paintings?

’The commonweal - serial-idyllic? Fruits and sublime idyll.

“Facing horror is indispensable to imagining a hope for the better.”

Morris - pilgrims of hope.

Fallen unripe.

Actual dead.

Communards are bruised fruit.

Putrescence, but seeds fall and reseed in seriality, which looks like hope.

Idyll rejects totality in favour of seriality.

Serial forms - Clare Pettit

Like seasons.

Political consciousness meets with the need to be calm and measured (strategy) communist and archivist, I mean anarchist, balance both.

Ephemerality meets seriality.

The problem with victory is that there is only one instance - and it is terminal.

But not with defeat, that lingers on..

So what do we do about depression? 

Thomson had a seriously sad personal story. He was part of the community, with a freedom to speak and he took it. 

Scandalously satirical. 

Earnest is to fight the power.

Satirical is to fight closer, with individuals?

Anecdotes of adjacency, personal political…

Sad aloneness to ’not’ committing to one political ideology/strategy. The somehow grappling. 

In football, the loosing team just collapse when defeated. The defeat takes the wind out of your sails. 

Compost heaps

Fruition is not the end point.

Dark, rotten, regenerative - regeneration, not rebirth. 

Finding the form to recuperate hope. 

Friends and trips to be. 

((Photograph shard end house. Try try.))

And outside. Death is a defeat?

A moment in a larger story. 

How do you break from the canon?

Imo those with the option for articulation have not been especially close to the reality. We must encourage those who cannot speak. I must be encouraged to speak. 

Memory is a physical, sensory experience. 

 screenshots dump - 2020 - 2021

 == Results from bdsmtest.org == 

81% Dominant 

80% Switch 

68% Submissive 

68% Non-monogamist 

68% Masochist 

67% Exhibitionist 

63% Rope bunny 

62% Brat tamer 

59% Voyeur 

58% Experimentalist 

57% Vanilla 

57% Primal (Hunter) 

55% Sadist 

51% Degrader 

47% Brat 

46% Master/Mistress 

44% Rigger 

42% Primal (Prey) 

25% Owner 

12% Degradee 

10% Daddy/Mommy 

9% Slave 

2% Pet 

0% Boy/Girl 

0% Ageplayer 

flummery

parasyte: the maxim

1. I am - 00:00

2. Bliss - 5:15

3. Hipnotik - 8:57

4. Galaxy - 13:35

5. Luna - 16:54

6. My Name Is Migi - 21:05

7. Justice - 24:52

8. Cream Soda - 28:06

9. Human - 31:41

10. Complex - 35:33

11. Next To You - 41:12

12. Kill The Puppets - 44:59

13. Pride and Joy - 49:37

14. The Truth - 54:15

15. Lesson 1 - 58:38

16. Black Nail - 01:01:19

17. Lives - 01:07:12

18. Romanesque - 01:09:37

19. Solitude - 01:14:11

Silly of me to think that I
Could ever have you for my guy
How I love you
How I want you
Silly of me to think that you
Could ever really want me too
How I love you

You're just a lover out to score
I know that I should be looking for more
What could it be in you I see
What could it be

Oh...oh...oh...love, oh, love
Stop making a fool of me
Oh...oh...oh...love, oh, love
Stop making a fool of me

Silly of me to think that you
Could ever know the things I do
Are all done for you
Only for you
Silly of me to take the time
To comb my hair and pour the wine
And know you're not there

You're just a lover out to score
And I know that I should be looking for more
What could it be in you I see
What could it be

Oh...oh...oh...love, oh, love
Stop making a fool of me
Oh...oh...oh...love, oh, love
Stop making a fool of me

Ooh...hoo...hoo...hoo...

Silly of me to go around
And brag about the love I've found
I say you're the best
Well, I can't tell the rest
And foolish of me to tell them all
That every night and day you call
When you could care less

You're just a lover out to score
And I know that I should be looking for more
What could it be in you I see
What could it be

Oh...oh...oh...love, oh, love
Stop making a fool of me
Oh...oh...oh...love, oh, love
Stop making a fool of me, uh-huh

Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh...ooh...ooh...silly
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh...ooh...ooh...silly

Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Silly
Ooh, ooh, la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la
Silly
La-la-la-la-la-la
La-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la
Silly

Rafflesia tuan-mudae

www.bdsmtest.org

== Results from bdsmtest.org ==
100% Exhibitionist
100% Voyeur
98% Switch
80% Non-monogamist
69% Masochist
63% Dominant
61% Submissive
58% Experimentalist
57% Owner
56% Brat tamer
55% Sadist
51% Degrader
48% Master/Mistress
48% Primal (Prey)
48% Rigger
48% Primal (Hunter)
47% Brat
44% Slave
43% Rope bunny
43% Vanilla
43% Daddy/Mommy
37% Boy/Girl
36% Degradee
33% Ageplayer
1% Pet

dissappointment fainting in paris

screaming woman in shining career never recovered

popeye flop

https://www.e-flux.com/journal/47/60057/we-are-all-clitoridian-women-notes-on-carla-lonzi-s-legacy/

moving house to badly drawn boy

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